when?

I woke the other morning... like most mornings ready to face the day. got dressed. ate breakfast. woke up the kids..then suddenly.. I felt an over abundance of sad... tears welled up in my eyes... rolled down my cheeks.. I went back to my room for a big huge cry out.

I weigh to much. stand to tall. get angry at times. share my opinion to much. been called rude names and been labeled my whole life.

when did I get so sad???  I thought about this... have been thinking about this .. turns out I have been sad for years... ya you heard me years...
I have been through so much... some of them my fault. some of them by my own decision.. others way out of my control...
Ive tried OTC for mood lifters.. changed my diet.. blah blah.. saw a therapist.. I never go long...

time to make some changes